Alone. So fucking alone.

So. Fucking. Lonely._

I just want to be gone tbh

Not once in the last 6 months have I not cried myself to sleep

Think I’m just going to become a right asshole so people stop hurting me.

I’m tired of crying myself to exhaustion. I just want it all to be over.

Can’t keep on doing this

I hope I am still here, in another year.

It’s pathetic but now I am in a place that I was in eight years ago. And I don’t know what I’m going to end up doing. I can’t live knowing I’m never going to be good enough to be loved, romantically. Can’t live in the fear of breaking down everyday, of running to the bathroom cos I can feel myself breaking.